Watching the Wheels

WATCHING THE WHEELS 

 Here I am on the 1st October 2020 passing my day by writing a New blogg. I'm not sure what I will write but here I go again.

I'm approaching my 72nd year on this three dimensional plane and I wonder what will be my legacy, what will I be remembered for?
"Has my life had purpose and what have I learnt?".

Now in my Sunset Years, I'm sitting here just Watching the Wheels go around and around.
Each day is just Another Day and Tomorrow never knows.

There's little to do and all the time in the world to do it.
I'm single by choice and live alone at a place I call home.
I read and write and try to live a stress free existence.

I'm daily battling cancer , a failing kidney and Parkinson's disease and I live "One day at a time".

I'm in constant pain and believe my time is running out. I refuse to go to hospital as there is little they can do to stop the cancer or my only kidney from failure.

 

Lately the cancer has eaten a hole in my back and its draining my energy. My only kidney has become a constant dull pain and giving me hot flushes . 

I feel that I may lose my battle anytime now and these may be my last words.

I'm not undergoing any medical treatment for both my health issues and try to eat healthy and live a healthy lifestyle.

I rarely drink alcahol and prefer to self medicate with a variety of herbs.

I have a small hand full of friends whom I share my thoughts and conversations with, which I value dearly.

For health reasons  I wish I could giving up  My one addiction, the ciggies.

I rarely go out and socialise, pubs and clubs only hold a temptation to drink and gamble and I can't afford either. Booze damages my health and gambling destroys my financial well-being.

Sex has become non existent and at the age of 71 I no longer have the desire to waste my time to try to find someone that excites me. Not thinking with my dick anymore is a great relief and I can focus on

Living.  

One's greatest achievements in life should be the discovery of the "Love of the self and all of creation".  

Utaalk "Love".

Looking Back.

Ever since taking my first LSD trip in 1968 I have been searching for the Meaning of Life.
I devoted many years of my life reading 100s of Esoteric books and material on Philosophy , Religion, Ancient cultures and their belief systems, Aliens, Space and Time, Reincarnation, Astral Travel, Mind body and Spirit and Death, to name just a few.

During the mid 1970s I meditated inside a home built Pyramid aligned with crystals and magnetic fields.

During my meditation I began receiving images of the past and the future and made notes on my experiences.
These notes became the the contents of my first published article titled "A Psychic Unfoldment".

In the article I made a number of Psychic predictions that became a reality soon after their publication..

The article also covered my encounter with a grounded flying saucer back in the 1960s.
My alien encounters began when I was just seven years old in the small NSW town of Bombala.

These Alien encounters took place every 7 years with the last one being in 2019. I was then forewarned of a coming Pandemic and Cyber War and a push to Depopulate the Earth by 2025'.

Even today I question whether the encounters were real, reality can often deceive the observer.
I have documented these encounters in Blogg form and can be found at the following

brianfcooper.blogspot.com

."Was this my destiny, to work as a Psychic or a Freelance Writer?".

Trying to expose the Cover up on UFO's and Aliens resulted in threats and being discredited as a Looney.

My personal encounters with aliens proved their existence and eventually I gave up my research on the topic. I discovered my truth from my personal contact and that's all I needed. I couldn't give a damn what anyone else believes.

My truth is all that matters.

I ended up devoting around 9 years of my life as a Freelance Writer, writing a variety of articles for various publications under the name " John Squire". My work was published globally and my 15 minutes of Fame achieved.  My work appeared in magazines, books and newspapers around the Earth.

Some "off planet" entities even took an interest and my work has become cosmic folklore.

In 1986 I quit writing due to the censorship of my material and threats against my life.
Certain individuals wanted me silenced concerning a story I was researching, so I went underground for 22 years, until 2008.

The story I was researching and writing became "THE GREATEST STORY NEVER TOLD" and can be found at the following link

www.utaalkbackwards.blogspot.com

I spent 6 years researching and writing the above story and hid it away in 1986 until I decided to publish it in Blogg form in 2015.
I wandered in the wilderness for 29years before self publishing.

My work has always been criticised and yet I stand by everything I have written or said. My journey and experiences are my own and no one can take that away from me.

All my life I have sought The Meaning of Life; to discover enlightenment and to find purpose.
I wanted to contribute to the evolution of the species and bring Light to the darkness of ignorance. 

After 71 years of searching for answers to all of life's questions I have concluded that life is just a "state of consciousness".

"Without ME being conscious of reality, then does anything really exist?"

"I THINK THEREFORE I AM, I THINK".

Utaalk "I am here".

We all have our own journeys in life and trying to make any sense of it all can distract one from understanding its lesson and purpose. 

It's not until we grow old and retire do we have the time to reflect and analyze all the jig saw pieces. 

Pieces of forgotten memories consume one's thoughts and emotions flutter like the wings of a butterfly.

Time Travelling backwards and forward, one has to question what is real or just one's imagination or perception of the events. 

Memories are all we have as we grow old and fade into obscurity

I'm consumed by the music of my generation and my heroes are all dead and gone. 

The modern world bores me and the threat from AI ( artificial intelligence) scares me. 

"2020".

THE YEAR THE EARTH STOOD STILL".

The current questionable Pandemic has shut the world down and left many living in a Fear society and not a Free society. 

Lockdown have imprisoned those that seek to protest or March over issues of injustices and corrupt leadership.

Freedom of Speech is no longer a Right and those that stick their neck up to speak out soon lose their heads.

Those running this world at the moment are brutal  and prepared to squash any opposition to their plans. The future looks very bleak and the people of Earth need to face governance by a  New World Order.

Perhaps the old corrupt system needs to be demolished and a World Government could be an evolutionary process? 

Change is inevitable and we need to welcome change and face the Brave New World ahead.

A "Cashless" world is planned by 2025 .

This co-incidents with a Depopulation plan of around 25percent by 2025. 

The release of various virus's over the next 4 years shall kill off many and a more sustainable global population achieved.

Perhaps like the Biblical Flood, the culling of humanity is a good thing and will help achieve a sustainable world for those surviving these events.?

As humans we can't keep reproducing, we need global birth control and to cull those that are unproductive and a burden on the system.

Perhaps a global introduction of an EUTHANASIA program would help and assist those whom no longer wish to live because of personal health issues.?

The world needs such radical changes if the race is to survive.

The world of tomorrow is determined by making the right decisions today.

To close on a Positive Note, let the Light and Love flow through you and become "The river of Light".

Utaalk
"River of Light"

The End.

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